In Community and In Resistance

filipinafemme:

[tw : rape, misogyny]

you, yes, you. no, not him. you. you’re not excluded for calling yourself a feminist. oh, you smoked me up once? nope, not excluded, so fucking listen for a second and shut the fuck up.

you act like my friend and think it’s so cool that i’m sex positive + queer, but, at the end of the day, what that really means to you is

“SWEET I CAN FUCK THAT SLUT” 

you think you can have me, but you can’t. i don’t ever want anyone to “have” me, but you wouldn’t get that or what it feels like because you’ve never been commodified, exotified, sexualized. 

you think you’re the shit, but you think i’m a piece of shit, a piece of ass, because i’m curvy. because i’m asian. because i’m sex positive. because i’m queer. because i’m a rape survivor. you think i’m worthless and therefore couldn’t be anything but grateful for your nasty dick.

well, fuck you. fuck. you. FUCK YOU!

i’m going to gather all my queer sisters and scream it from the rooftops with megaphones because we deserve to scream and shout and you deserve to hear us and all the pain you’ve inflicted.

for the time you texted me unsolicited photos of your dick and were shocked, just shocked, when i was completely disgusted.

for the time i was taking drugs and rolling around on the floor, eyes closed and head spinning, and you crawled over and whispered, despite the numerous i’d said no before, “can i fuck you?” can i fuck you, not even can we fuck? as if i were a receptacle and no participant at all. 

for the time you raped me, you fucking fuck, and had the audacity to text me later and “apologize” for the unremembered sex.

fuck you, and don’t you ever dare tell me you’re on my team and you’re not a threat because you eventually always always ALWAYS will be. it ain’t no fucking if — it’s a matter of WHEN. get this, and, if you seriously give a shit about me, you’ll take my suspicion and apprehension and fear and respect it and heed it rather than get offended, because it’s warranted.

this is you, straight, white, cis male. not that other guy. this is you, because you carry every privilege this world has to offer. accept it, own it, and maybe then you can begin to learn to stop being a misogynist ass.

yours, not yours,

me

(Source: petitsirena)